Don't Lament: Rejoice
I have, and will, face many trials. A large majority of these trials and difficulties may appear to be self-inflicted. Either way, I will rejoice; I will find a way to see the most benevolent perspective. I will trust the Sovereign God, who is Love, who disciplines out of love, and who uses all things for good. All things, even my failures and trials, will bring glory to the name of God.
I will humble myself, admitting weakness, failures, and the need for Divine correction, wisdom, and guidance. I will accept the fact that not all lessons will be pleasurable. But I will accept this with humility and thankfulness. I will be content when my ego decieves me and leads me down a treacherous path. And I will be content when I have been wise and chosen a smooth path of peace.
The Lord knows what I need, and is always loving toward me. So, I will not lament when I fall, I will not lament at my failures. I will not lament at loss. I will not lament when I fall captive again to addiction. I will humbly thank God at all times, for all things. If I fall into hopeless, fear-driven sorrow (lamenting), then I am not trusting in the Almighty Loving Creator.
Will I cry? Yes! I will let the tears fall from my eyes, but I will have hope. Hope that one day I will be more wise, and make more beneficial and pure choices. I will shed my tears with my face to the sky. I will stare at the sun and let the light of God's love burn through my eyes and into the depths of my soul. I will look to Him who is forever loving, forever gracious, and forever with me.
Panic will not help. Struggle is futile. Regret and guilt are non-productive. Wherever I am, whatever I have or have not done, I am a child of God. He will not abandon me, or turn from me in rejection. If I am in heaven and running with the angels, You are with me; even if I am traversing the treacherous paths of hell, You are there. For darkness is as light to you. There is no difference for the One who is all.
I turn my heart and my inner eye to the One who saves. In all things there is purpose. In all things You can be found. I will keep my eye on Your Light. It will be a lamp unto my feet and a light to my Path. Even when I am in the presence of my enemies, you will stop and prepare a table to dine with me and feed me. You anoint my head with oil to give me comfort during the difficult journey. I never thirst because You keep my cup full to overflowing. You guide me on the right path because I am yours, and it will honor Your Name.
I will not lament in fear. I will walk every path with my eyes on the one who Loves me. Your love expels all fear. And, one day, when all fear has been faced, loved, and transmuted, then I will look and see who I really am: A being of Light, a child of Love. I may have to walk through fearful valleys, but it is all for the purpose of being made into the image of You. The Fearless being of Ultimate Love and True Power. Eons ago You said, "Let's make man in our image"; Let's make man into pure, loving, and fearless, divine-humans. And this is what you are doing. Every word and desire of God will be fulfilled.
I accept the process, however it may look. I will not lament. I will trust; I will believe; I will look into the heavens and know that I am never abandoned. You are with me, using all things to make me into the image of the Divine Son of Love.
Hallelujah.